Long before Mackenzie was born, I started planning for changes in my work life to accommodate a baby. And as self-centered as that may sound, that is really how I looked at it. My Life + Baby.
But there is so much you can’t know and don’t know until you’re in the middle of it – be it parenthood or a new job, or anything new, really.
And even after my epiphany in the weeks before Mackenzie was born, I still had it set in my heart that I would find a way to make being a stay at home working mom work for our family.
For the last nine months, it has worked. Mackenzie is a sweet baby, my world, and my heart, and I love spending my days with her.
I have a handful of truly amazing clients. I am so thankful for them. And my ideas for growing and expanding Creative Perch are working, albeit on a delayed timeline.
But I was wrong to ever think My Life + Baby was a remotely realistic plan. When you have a baby, everything changes. Baby comes first, before career, before evening plans, before anything else. (Except my marriage — but that’s an entirely different topic.)
Sometimes I wonder where My [Old] Life has gone, but I am so completely in love with my life now that I barely miss the way things used to be.
That said, being a work at home mama with no family support nearby and a husband who works ridiculous hours is HARD. It’s a lot of solo parenting and multi-tasking and not the least bit glamorous. I want to
kick people laugh when they say I am lucky to work from home.
Blessed? Absolutely, yes. The last nine months have been amazing. My daughter is amazing. But there is nothing easy about working from home with an infant.
The late nights and not sleeping and diaper changes while on client phone calls are HARD. Not to mention, the financial roller coaster of freelance work is a strain. Chris and I work nonstop, like hamsters in a wheel, with breaks to create family memories that sustain us through the next big push.
Sometimes I look at it all and wonder if it is all worth it. Is any of it really working?
So, Chris and I are looking at making some changes to how we do things. It has been scary and intimidating, but I am propelled by this feeling that something has to change.
We need balance and peace in our home. We need to find our joy in daily life again. We need to feel like things are working.
I would love to learn from you! What do you do to balance work and family? How do you live joyfully and keep peace in your home?