Hope deferred makes the heart sick,
but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.
Chris and I have been in this big cycle of waiting lately. Pushing against the flywheel, but just barely moving it. There are so many things we have been hoping for and longing for, but we’ve just felt stonewalled.
There are some things in life that you can push for and make happen, and others are just completely outside of our control. We have longings that fall into both categories. We long for another child in our home, and we long for a home of our own.
We pray for breakthrough and for mountains to be moved and for something to just shift. We pray that our hearts would be in the right place, and that God would only give us that which is good, because we know that His blessing is good, and there is no sorrow with it. We pray for wisdom.
We pray for the right job for Chris, the right fit, in the right place, at the right time, with the right people. We pray for favor and blessing.
And we wait. We wait for something good. We wait for God to honor His promise, because we know He will.
In the midst of all the waiting and praying and working and everyday, day-to-day, we hold our breath, and smile, and go on.
The only balm I know for longing in the heart is gratitude.
Gratitude for God’s immeasurable blessing in our life. Gratitude for each other. For the beautiful child we have who fills our life everyday, for the home we live in, for the dogs and the garden and the mess that goes with all of our projects. Gratitude for each other, in the adventures and in the daily grind. For our families and our friends and the people who bring so much joy and life to our world.
If you, too, have a heart full of longing, my thoughts and prayers go out to you. Hang in there. Don’t give up, the praying or the waiting. For surely God is faithful, and He knows our hearts and our needs far better than we do.
A little bit of encouragement from the fabulous cheerleader of tired moms, Lisa-Jo Baker — “When You’re Tired of Waiting” 🙂