She asked me to link to ICAN for VBAC awareness. I had no idea what those acronyms stood for, so I had to do some research. VBAC stands for vaginal birth after Cesarean, and ICAN stands for International Cesarean Awareness Network.
At my last post-partum visit, my doctor told me that if I wanted to have a vaginal birth when we have another baby, I “should be okay,” so I haven’t given any of this much thought until now.
I in no way regret scheduling a Cesarean with Mackenzie. I believe it was absolutely the right thing to do, especially given that the umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck, and her heart rate was dropping while they prepped me for the surgery. It was the safest, best option we had to protect her and get her here and into our arms.
But people can be mean, and it’s hard to hear that I didn’t actually “birth” her. My body never went into labor. I don’t feel that I missed out for me. Or on the experience, exactly. It’s hard to find the words.