Today was Mackenzie’s very first day in real day care. It went so much better than I expected — for both of us.
Over the last couple of months I have waffled back and forth between wanting to go back to a regular job and wanting to be home with Mackenzie full-time. I pursued some opportunities that were opening up, but for different reasons, every door I tried closed.
I learned so much in the process.
The work I do is in demand, and my skills are in demand. However, the market itself is intense, and I’m not ready to give up days, nights, and weekends — and miss all that time with my daughter — for a career opportunity, no matter how attractive it may be. I won’t even throw my hat in the ring.
I also learned that I’m not okay with just any child care solution for Mackenzie, and I don’t want to be away from her 40 hours a week. I want to be the primary caregiver and teacher in her life right now. I don’t want to miss a moment with her.
At the same time all of that has been going on, my freelance work has really started picking up. The projects I am working on are challenging and exciting, and my clients are fantastic.
SO, Chris and I finally decided to try a compromise that gives Mackenzie more time with other kids and other caregivers and gives me some dedicated time to work. I found a child care center/pre-school that I love, and we’ve committed to just two days a week.
So today was our first day. Mackenzie was a champ, and I tried not to be a wreck. I got some work done and had lunch with Chris, called to check on Mackenzie twice, and picked her up even earlier than I had planned. But all in all, it was a good day.
It will get easier very soon and seem like it’s just all part of the routine! 🙂 And it will be good for her as well- I really believe that giving kids someone else besides Mama now and then is good for them and teaches them to be flexible, you know? It’s so weird at first, I remember taking Maggie at 10 weeks old, just one day a week, I felt like a LIMB was missing. But soon it was ‘normal’ and she has always loved it there so much (and Audrey too!) I hope the adjustment goes well for all of you 🙂
I’m so glad that it went well. For both of you! It will get easier and seem less strange, I promise. And I’m so glad to hear that your freelance business is doing well!
i’m glad you followed your heart … i hope the adjustment goes smoothly for you both. 🙂 xo